i know it wont be easy, but i willing to make the investment. all the changes i make is just to enter your world, but you delimited the love border between us. I'm not allow to violate a regulation i gave you all my time, you will always my first priority. can i tie you up not to let you fly? whatever i end up doing is like a tidal wave washed over it. when it over, i felt i did solve a complicated maths equation. but i rather i couldn't solve it. I'm afraid my smile will gone when tomorrow is here. you will never be the reason my tears drop anymore. can someone teach me how to forgive?
Haven't been blogging for a while. Kinda lazy and got nothing much to blog. Exam is around the corner and I have to study like a mad cow to raise my grades, couldn't flunk any papers this sem, since it's a short one. Been quite of an emo kaki these few days. For some not-so-important matters that I should not really put so much time and effort on it. Feel like talking to somebody but who can I express my feelings to? I feel lonely at time, not the kind of lonely where you don't have people to accompany. It's the kind of lonely from the inside, feeling empty. I need someone to lead me back on track, someone to guide me along the way, I'm lost. Monday is my first paper, Tamadun Islam dan Asia. And I haven't fully revised the subject, was kinda occupied with something stupid. I've made my decision not to think about stuff like that for some times. Too confusing and tiring as well. I should be studying right now. 4.08am. I'm currently blogging at Jun Kit's house. And to Arsenal fans, 2-1 is not the end so don't be sad. I guess that's about it, got nth much to write. Good luck to all Tarcians for the upcoming exam. And good luck to you too as well.
I've just noticed that my blog was kinda 'dead' for a few weeks. So I'm up here to come up with a new post. :)
Life is still the same to me, go to college, going back home, dota, pool and sleep all the time. Nothing special happened recently. Well, besides that I've grown fatter and my waist length is 34, I guess my everyday life is still the same as last year.
To all my friends who have known me for a long or short period, what do you think of me? Am I independent or dependent? Feel free to tell me your thoughts or answers. As long as those answers are positive, I'm willing to accept them. :)
I know it's kind of a sudden why I'd asked this question and it's random. Cuz I've realized that every time when I want to change for a better, something or someone will be in the middle and block me from doing so. Maybe it's my friends, maybe it's my family and also maybe myself. Who knows other than god knows. Have you ever experience this sort of scenario? If you do, I truly understand your pain. If you're on the other side of the bridge, I'm glad that you're one of those lucky fellas who have little or maybe none of this sort of problem buggin' you in life.
I'm not one of those lucky fellas who's at the other side of the bridge. I've tonnes of experience in this sort of scenario. Well, let's not talk all bullshits and none will understand what I'm talking right here. To the people who've known me in depths, you should know that I can't drive, ALONE. Yeah, yeah, I know I've been blogging on this topic for like a thousand and one times but I promise you this will be the last, unless I'm officially LEGAL to drive.
Alright, I've got my P license for almost a year. And yet I can't drive. Fyi, I'm not a pathetic driver, so please don't get me wrong. It's just that I don't really get it. I've been driving for almost a year, with my mom sitting beside me, of course. 'Inspecting' me, navigating the wheels. And till today, she's still mm fong sam to let me drive alone. I'm already 19 this year, I'm matured enough and I know what I'm doing either with wheels or with chicks.
I wanted to drive because I want to be independent. Especially going to college or going out with ma peeps. I always feel like a burden to my parents to fetch me here and there. Altho the LRT is one of the ways for me to get connected but I still insist on driving. I've three cars at home. Logical explanation, one for mom, one for dad and the last one should be for me. But things doesn't go like that in my place. The suggestion that I got was, "It is best for you to drive when your P changed to L." It means I've to wait for TWO miserable years until I can actually drive, ALONE.
Without a car,
I have to take LRT back home everyday.
I can't go back late, unless there's someone who's willing to fetch me home.
With this sort of climate in Malaysia, traveling by foot is indeed another way to kill a person.
Have to depend on parents or friends to fetch me here and there.
Very the mm hou yi si if I depend too much on ma peeps to bring me around.
How on earth can a guy date his friends or chicks if he doesn't have a car?
Sad story huh? I really do hope someone can actually feel my pain and tells me, "Wa kasi lu kereta untuk pandu laah." If that happens, other than in my dreams, I sware there will be no more finger exercising during college days.
That's I have to blog about today. I guess I won't be blogging for the next 2 to 3 weeks cuz exam is closing in.
